My name’s Shantal I’m 18 I live in a crapy town. Don't mistake the smile for a real one. I’m crazy…that’s all you need to know. Forgive me because I can’t change it and I won’t…Because I don’t see the need to change my self…anymore. Not as much as I have the past year.
Catching Elephant is a theme by Andy Taylor
So I’m sitting here with My final needing to email it to my teacher but…..I really don’t want to read the archaical I have to summarize because more then likely it will be boring….and my brain hurts like a lot…..so…….I need to do this but i have no motivation
Can you say asshole ….you should it’s like your name
So just why can you not forget about everything. Why must you be haunted by everything. I’m so stupid for everything for thinking that something would change so stupid. So so stupid.
I’m so tired just got home……and I’m just tired today just used so much energy to not break down and cry…….everything is just going wrong……….horribly wrong……
I’m tired of being second……that’s what I am.
Just saying In case all of you are every wondering going to the hospital for two weeks does nothing…..being put on medication makes you happy for a couple weeks then it goes back to the same…………..nothing really changes… you just avoid it for a little bit……….then the thoughts come back, cutting goes to the same if anything worse then before, you actually start to think…..killing your self isn’t such a bad idea….because who would care….no one cared that you were missing for two weeks…..no one missed you….so what’s begin gone for ever going to do……but you will miss everyones smile…..and the teacher who cares more then your parents…..do…….ya….getting help….does nothing. just takes it away for a little bit.
yo I am back
Thank the gods!!!
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I am officially very Pissed off at the school I currently attend and they are very lucky for me to be a senior almost done with school other wise I would be unrolling tomorrow tell them they can suck a fucking dick because unlike them family means a lot to me. So yes I missed a week of school because my family is hurting….and maybe they didn’t get the memo but family comes first to anything.
I really really don’t like you right now. Why you ask because you are not my friend you where never my friend. You still aren’t my friends you don’t care you ignore me and you chose them over me all the time that is not a friend……I don’t like you right now but once you talk to me…..I’ll give in because I’m lonely and tired of not having friends.
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even when i’m not alone
